Forever, Until the End

 Love is not a game of chess. It is just dumb luck.

Things change and people always leave, isn't it ?

Then what is "𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫, 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐝"

After everything you have been through the last time. You gave up on love. Perhaps that was your biggest Fear - developing feelings for someone again. But one day someone swoops in, steals your heart. Now your world revolves as if they are the ones changing and moving your chain of thoughts. 

Speaking to them and with each message those nervous moments, trying to figure out what they feel. Gradually you get closer. From 12am to 2am to 4am.

Conversation gets Comfortable. You people get to know yourselves more. You realise what terrible things she had been through. You become a person whom she can Trust. Becoming someone she can rely upon on her worst days.

With time You realise She likes you too. Then suddenly in a Truth & Dare, you plot a question for her.

You take a chance. Put forward your Heart. She blushes, but She looked worried.

She says, "After everything I have been through, I don't want to lose You"

- Can You promise Me you won't Leave ?

You nod in assurance ❤️

All of a sudden, this is how it happens, right?

Love is not a game of chess. It is just dumb luck.

You people barely knew each other, now just for a couple of months or more and everything went your way. She trusts you. 𝗦𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗣𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲.

Nights got more romantic. The weather would make them blush. Songs would remind You of Her. Long texts. Funny Memes. Lovely Posts. Tags. Missing each other when Offline. 500 to 1000 unread Messages. Voice Calls to WhatsApp Status. Story was building well. All for the sake of Love ?

No, 𝗦𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗣𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲. May be you should have taken a note of it.

But no you didn’t. Ofcourse you were drunk in love. You waited for a Partner and apparently the one you got was so Perfect in the beginning. You post about your Partner, cause you want to show the world, you are blessed. Defending and protecting them from Gossips. Even if that meant fighting with others.

Days gone. Weeks gone. Her replies lacked excitement. You wonder what's going on.

No Misunderstanding. No Issues. But there was a change.

What was it ? 

When You got into the relationship, You were always afraid. The ominous fear of getting abandoned again. Trust is the only thing you had. Now Your Heart shrinks when You see seenzoned messages. Late Replies. You feel unimportant. You are Confused now. 

Is my Partner ashamed to have Me ?

"But Trust issues should never come in a relationship", You read that. 

"Stop overthinking”, you tell yourself. So you kept trusting. Probably the Biggest Problem was to decide If You should keep making a Fool of Yourself - or overlook all the red flags.

One day She accuses You.

- "I think we need to talk."

Your heart misses a beat.

She claims how lonely she has got. No Dates. No Hangouts. Were You really in a relationship ?

Taken aback, you mumble What is wrong ? You did everything you could. Gave her all the time in the world you could. Every single demand, every single wish. Then why this accusation suddenly ?

She asks You, “Do You even Love me ?”

You say Yes. You try to make her Understand How She is Your 'FIRST' Good Morning & 'LAST' Good Night.

Foolish you, making all gestures to prove your affection, when she had already decided the outcome.

You keep your Self-respect aside. Because there is NO EGO in Love.

She was not expecting such loyal Answers. There was an awkward silence.

She breaks the ice & cuts the long story short. Spilling that She has developed Feelings for a Guy. May be She was Sorry,

But She insisted How She had fallen for Him because of the PERSON HE IS. You smile. 

You know. This was not anything New. Same thing all over again. You crack a Joke. 

The Eerie Sadness behind the Emojis.

Keeping your feelings under check, You are a Man. You ought to.

Films Books have shown. Lovers are Bravehearts. They are selfless. You decide to part ways.

You had no option either.

You Kept imagining them in the Story of your Dreams.

Apparently they fit into them. You lose yourself somewhere in that.

& The Thing you never Anticipated. HAPPENS.

You meant Nothing to Them. You can be replaced. Easily. 

As if all these memories meant nothing.

You should have understood.

Days after your break-up, You feel like why ?

Why did I lose them either in the First Place ?

Seemingly You don't even know What is PERFECT,

People will laugh at you even if that's not your Mistake. You'll seem Stupid. Like a clown, although All You did was to Trust your Love. Your self-esteem is shattered.

You can't be that same Person again. What you thought were fragments - were actually a major part of your life - that faded away. Will never come back. 

Tears may not be there. But a Constant Sobbing is persistent.

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©DebnathDas